since my last blog.....

This Lesbian has gone through so many things in since her last blog, firstly its the new year 2009 with all its new hopes and prospects (well we hope there will be new prospects, particularly money and business wise)

I got my cat back from my ex ( officially called jack daniels the 'baggage' cat),

I purchased my 4rth generation ipod nano

I spent some of the beginning of the year watching the 5th Season of the L word,

I have a new little being in our extended family (this came with a whole lot of emotions for me),

And I am finally going to Europe for the first time in my life!!

so many things to talk about - which do I begin with???

Gaming lesbians!

I cant believe that my last post was in May!
let me see what have I been doing? alot and nothing..... but most recently I have discovered the joys of the play station 2!
Yup - now we get to spend 10 hours of weekend time playing T.V. or Video games as they used to be called, now its Play Station 1,2,3 , The Wii and Xbox whichever version has come out!

Yes lesbians become like little boys battling it out on a T.V. screen.
What are the lesbians playing these days?? anything and everything...
my favourites at the moment:

Gran Terismo
Mortal Kombat
The Sims
Spiderman
etc etc

I love the whole escapasm and adrenalin rush aspect of these games, although some are rather disturbing and remain in ones mind hours after playing the game...

But more on this once I have done more research......

Queer as Folk VS the Sims

Wow, I was searching the net today and can you believe there is a version of the sims as the Q.A.F characters, this is a game I would proberly spend hours playing!

I wonder if there is The L Word version of the sims yet?

Queer as Folk again!

Finally finished watching Queer as Folk, I love the season, and of all the characters my favourite is Brian Kenney, and to think he is actually straight in reality!

Here are a few of my favourite quotes of this character who finally grows a heart at the end of season 5.

Brian: Are you coming or going? Or coming and then going? Or coming and staying? (Episode: 101)
Brian: Pop quiz, no talking. Here's your question. Multiple choice. Do you want to come home with me? A, yes. B, yes. Or C, yes. Tick tick tick! Time's up, pencils down. What do you say?
Brian: I don't believe in love. I believe in fucking. (Episode: 101)
Brian: There’s only two kinds of straight people in this world: the ones that hate you to your face and the ones that hate you behind your back. (Episode: 102)

Brian: This is where I live. This is who I am. (Episode: 501)
Brian: I'm queer! (Episode: 501)
Brian: And to anyone who takes pity or offense, I say judge yourself. It's who I am. (Episode: 501)
Brian: My mother was a frigid bitch, my father an abusive drunk. They had a hateful marriage, which is problably why I am unwilling or unable to perform a long term, commited relationship of my own. The fact that I drink like a fish, abuse drugs, and have more or less redefined promiscuous sex dosen't help, much. As a result, I've lost the two people in my life that mean the most of me. There, don't you feel better? No, but I'm sure you do. (Episode: 508)
Brian: I love you. (Episode: 510)
Brian: I love you.Justin: Hmmm...Brian: I love you. (Episode: 510) Justin: What changed your mind?Brian: I finally thought of one good reason to do it.Justin: And what is that one good reason?Brian: To prove to the person that I love how much I love him. That I would give him anything...I would do anything...I'd be anything...to make him happy. I am selling the loft and the club.Justin: Without even knowing what my answer will be?Brian: I am taking my chance on love.Justin: And you mean it?Brian: I never meant anything more.Justin: OK.Brian: OK?Justin: Let's do it.Brian: Say it.Justin: Yes.Brian: Yes what?Justin: Yes. Yes. I will marry you. (Episode: 511)
Brian: Why can't we just stay here and cuddle? (Episode: 513)

Begin - Unknown

Begin

T oday is the day to begin. This new year is a blank canvas upon which you have the delightful opportunity to paint.

As you do, be authentic. Your greatest accomplishments are the ones that contain the greatest quantity of you.

Be innovative and creative. The challenges you face will melt away when you apply fresh, original thinking to them.

Remember not to take yourself too seriously. You'll climb much higher when you're thoroughly enjoying the effort.

As you move forward, do so with genuine and persistent integrity. That way, the results you create will be results that are actually worth attaining.

Today you stand at the beginning of a grand adventure, with the very real and present opportunity to shape this year into the best one ever.

Begin now, take the initiative, and never stop living life according to who you know you are.

When

When When your reasons to move forward outweigh your excuses for staying put, you will move forward. When your thirst for success is more powerful than the desire to stay within your comfort zone, you will succeed.
When the reward is meaningful enough, you will act. When you connect your deepest purpose with the goals you set, those goals will be achieved.
When you understand that there is a real and accessible pathway to the most magnificent dreams you can dream, you'll get yourself on that path. When you know without a doubt that every action has a consequence, you'll focus all your actions in a positive and valuable direction.
When you love what you do, you'll do it with grace and ease and excellence. When you do what you love, you'll provide a steady stream of unique and extraordinary gifts to life.
When you are completely clear about why, you'll be able to figure out how. When you let go of the need to need, you'll fall into a massive sea of beautiful abundance.
When you are ready, life is here to fully live. Choose it, and now is when. -- Ralph Marston

Family.....

I took my mother out for cake and coffee for "Mother's Day", my mother and I do not have the easiest relationship and it became more estranged and strained when I came out. Yesterday was the first time in weeks that I saw her face light up when I walked through the door, it made me feel welcome and loved again even if it was superficial, even though she didnt mention my partner or ask me how living together and creating a life with my partner is, or when she could come over for a meal or some tea.

Why is it that we try please our families particularly our parents? Why do I need their approval so much? Will it make me love myself more, could I be happy living the life my parents wanted even though it makes me miserable?

I think that when we come out and live an openly gay/lesbian lifestyle, we tend to make our own families, we meet people who are in the same situation as us and sometimes our friendships formed with these people are closer than those of our biological families.

Yet one can never replace the biological family and love them or hate them, you had no choice in the matter when you came into this world and neither did they.